Staying True to the Course

It was a difficult morning for me today. I got up early, but ended up leaving later than I wanted. I had found a very interesting and inspiring lecture on by Howard Gardner (http://www.pzweb.harvard.edu/PIs/HG_Multiple_Lenses.pdf), and got so absorbed in thinking. While waiting on the subway platform I was a little tired and leaned against one of the posts while reading a paper.

When I moved away from the post, I felt a sticky sensation and discovered that I had gotten red paint on my coat and on my messenger bag. Luckily the paint didn't dry by the time I got to work. I was also lucky enough to have a cannister of handy wipes and I spent about 15 minutes trying to scrub the paint off my coat and bag.

I think most of the paint is off -- at least it's not visible. I learned a lesson a moment a go. As I was scrubbing furiously to try to salvage my coat (with thoughts of how much a new coat would set me back), I said out loud "it's coming out", "it's coming out", "it's coming out". At first, it didn't look like it was going to work -- the paint seemed to have dried. But I kept repeating the phrase over and over again, and for now I'm a little reassured that it's going to be ok (I won't have to buy a new coat just yet).

I'm writing at the moment because I need to put my thoughts out there for myself. I need to see that I'm doing ok. "Day - by - day in every way, by way of God I'm getting better".

Work has been very hard for me for the last two months. I need to keep up my discipline and stay the course, and stay true to myself, my goals, dreams and aspirations.

Reflection

Ok, so I have all this information in different places. It's been difficult for me to put it all together -- but I believe I'm making progress.

The last 4 months have been extremely challenging for me. They've been a test of my strength, courage, and perserverence.

I'm glad that I can come back to this space and find my old posts and blogs. Not sure if it's a good place to put all of my thoughts, but if I'm helping someone else get through their challenges, perhaps it's not such a bad thing.

I'm reading the book, True North. I'm on chapter 9, and have realized that it's been awhile since I've gone through the exercises and now I realize that it's not too late -- I can get myself back on the program.

Passion. What's my passion? I believe it has a lot to do with the performing arts: music, dance, theater, and film. A lot of other people share the same passion, so many that there aren't enough jobs to go around.

However, if I take a momment and think about it, perhaps it's not about waiting for the job I want, but being able to create the job I want (and need) and am passionate about.

So, I guess that what I realize at this moment is that I have to create my opportunities -- the tools are right here in front of me. I can post my ideas to the world in an instant. (And I will give it a go right now!)